Celibacy Report - Day 3.14

A few days before my last report and for over a week after that, I experienced a constant low-level pain in my knees. I was not sure if it was because of celibacy. A search on the web did not reveal much except for one link from Google Book Search which returned an excerpt from a book called Wheels of Life: Stiffness in the sacrum may result in knee trouble as well, for it throws the body weight off from the central line of gravity.

Sometime in the past week, the knee pain more or less went away. I have sensed it return occasionally, early in the morning, before I am fully awake. Other than that, it is not as constant as it used to be.

By now, I have become quite used to celibacy. There are way fewer involuntary non-celibate thoughts now, than there were in the early days of celibacy.

As the focus shifts away from the physical feelings, I am noticing that there is a greater feeling of emotional void. I think that in the next few days and weeks, dealing with this emotional void will be even more challenging than dealing with the physical feelings. Hope I don't end up saying or doing something stupid. Gotta keep focussed on work and studies. We shall see how it goes.